My friend brought up a point about those
Mac vs. PC commercials how Macs were represented by a younger man when Macs are actually older than PCs.
Macs were older, visually cool and were rather impervious to viruses, so we casted Sean Connery to be a Mac.
And since PCs are younger and and can (theoretically) do everything, we casted Chuck Norris.
This last quarter is really taking a lot out of me.I haven't had any all-nighters yet, but I've had a headache for several days from sitting in front of the computer. On days I don't have school, I sleep at 3 AM and wake up at 11, and the first thing I do is turn on the computer and work on my portfolio.
Several times I wanted to give up and spend $700 for next quarter with my Portfolio class as my only class; an amount I can earn if I whore myself out at Fanime. So it would be possible to do it on my own, but I still can't drive which makes things a lot more complicated :/
In between the times I wanted to give up, I would sit on my bed before sleeping for a few minutes and want to cry in frustration. Sometimes I would work hours on an animation and it doesn't look any better. When I would finish blocking out one scene, I realize that it was staged completely wrong and needed to be completely redrawn. It was only when I forced myself to pick up the BIble and read through a few chapters when I felt like I could breathe again.
As of this moment, I can finish all my stuff on time :3 (started this post yesterday morning and wasn't sure then, but I'm good right now)
I'm scared of graduation because I don't know if anyone's gonna hire me. I have absolutely no job experience, and unlike quite a bit of people at school, my family has no artists in the field.
My art is average. My animation isn't industry standard. I don't think I have any teachers who would say anything good about me. I don't know Actionscripting. I've seen people who've graduated with a degree but have had a hard time finding a job for an entire year. I'm just a nobody with a portfolio trying to squeeze their way into the Big Wide World.
I also want to support my family rather than burdening them with unemployment. We're already scraping the bottom of the barrel as is, which is why I'll go anywhere in the world, as long as I can get paid. It would also be my first job, so I can't be picky either =w=;;
I make it sound like I'm doing art because it pays well, but seriously, that's not the case (I'm pretty good at math and Excel, so I'm sure I can be an accountant). This is what I want to do, and for me it's worth losing sleep over.
And speaking of sleep, I must retire to get my whooping four hours of sleep :D